i’ve been away for a month.

in a month, it’s funny how things changed, and it’s funny how i’m so lucky in so many ways. now i have to just really take my time and stop trying to rush everything like everyone said…. or like how most people told me. i’m really bad at that. i’m really impatient and really frustrated at times, but it’s good to be able to relax or have nothing at all, because when you’re blank, you basically can put anything on your canvas, you basically can call yourself or claim yourself as anything you want, or anything you would possibly want at that given time… and i find that… quite wonderful in many ways, but i’ve been rushing, and digging to find that certain something to put on my canvas, in a way, i have— and in other ways, i’m not sure yet, but we were all at some point where we weren’t sure of something, and then we just gone with it, and let it take us where it will take us. i’m still deciding, choosing… not sure what i want at this given moment, and there’s plenty of people that do. plenty of people that have known for awhile now. i’m just one of those… undecided, and indecisive people. and sometimes we have to be grateful for the moments we get. because sometimes, we never get them again….

so in a month, i’ve found a best friend, a companion, and a lover. someone that trusts me, that understands me, and encourages me to be a better person in many ways. in a month, i’ve been experiencing someone that is very special and we both know that you’re amazing and the “best”….. in a month, i’ve been able to be happy.